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Thursday, May 3
I have better things to do now, so stop irritating me with your fucking temper.
You can't help me in anything.
Be it money or time.
You can't give me those things which i fucking need it now.
You can go on with your own life.
I do not need to be in it.
I can't even solve the things which are standing right in front of me.
What makes you think yours is important?
So, fuck off if you want.
I DON'T FUCKING CARE...!!!!!
You can't help me in anything.
Be it money or time.
You can't give me those things which i fucking need it now.
You can go on with your own life.
I do not need to be in it.
I can't even solve the things which are standing right in front of me.
What makes you think yours is important?
So, fuck off if you want.
I DON'T FUCKING CARE...!!!!!
うまい！
14:03
Wednesday, May 2
do you have a close one who promises you tons of things which dun come true?
do you have a close one who always brag with things they do but it is not true?
do you have a close one who said that they will never stab your back but they do?
do you have a close one who said everything is going to be alright but it came like hell?
I do have.
I've been trying to forgive and forget but it is hard for me.
I hate the things which he/she let me go through.
I hate it that i remembered it so vaguely as if it is just yesterday.
Was it so hard for me to ask for a simple life?
Was it so hard for him/she to understand?
Was is so hard for him/she to know?
I was just only 15yrs old.
What the fuck do you have to meet up with such a bastard!?
He came knocking on our door daily without fail.
Asking for money.
When we asked what is wrong,
You raised your voices and told us to shut up
Telling us that everything will turn out fine.
I still remembers that brat; face and voice.
Till we lost our place called home.
For fucking several years, I've been lying to my friends.
I've been wearing a fake smile, lying through my teeth.
That you were a great person.
But deep in my heart, you're nobody.
I cant believe that I've become a person who lies so easily.
Houses to houses, my friends asked.
I lied to them that it was ours.
But truth is, all weren't bought.
Days turned to months.
And months turned to years.
Till i forgot the number of lies i made.
It has been fucking five years without a 'safe' shelter.
Should i thank you for all the journey you 'made'?
And finally, it stopped.
We went on our separate ways.
I once again have a place called home.
I have a stable job and thought that it will turn out fine.
But it is just the beginning...
Daily, you called.
Asking for the same thing.
Do I look like one fucking ATM to you?
You said that I was favorite,
but all you do is making me sick.
Is this what an adult should do?
What the fuck is your limbs for?
I was just a 20yrs girl.
Do you think i'm fucking rich?
Every time, i head out with my friends.
They brag about the things you adults do.
but i hate that moment the most.
At times, I just wanna shut down myself.
I heard enough of all those promises you made.
It is all bullshit.
After months, you stopped contacting.
It is as if you did not existed.
But now,
I hate liars.
I hate stabbers.
I hate empty promises.
And I hate all those things you said.
I've lost trust in everyone.
Thanks to you.
I should be thankful for all those lessons you 'taught'.
Sometimes, i wonder if that is my true self.
I wonder if my words are true or lies.
I cant differentiate them.
So now, lies are my friends.
They accompanied me through the years.
So...
Thank you, lies.
And thank you, adult...
do you have a close one who always brag with things they do but it is not true?
do you have a close one who said that they will never stab your back but they do?
do you have a close one who said everything is going to be alright but it came like hell?
I do have.
I've been trying to forgive and forget but it is hard for me.
I hate the things which he/she let me go through.
I hate it that i remembered it so vaguely as if it is just yesterday.
Was it so hard for me to ask for a simple life?
Was it so hard for him/she to understand?
Was is so hard for him/she to know?
I was just only 15yrs old.
What the fuck do you have to meet up with such a bastard!?
He came knocking on our door daily without fail.
Asking for money.
When we asked what is wrong,
You raised your voices and told us to shut up
Telling us that everything will turn out fine.
I still remembers that brat; face and voice.
Till we lost our place called home.
For fucking several years, I've been lying to my friends.
I've been wearing a fake smile, lying through my teeth.
That you were a great person.
But deep in my heart, you're nobody.
I cant believe that I've become a person who lies so easily.
Houses to houses, my friends asked.
I lied to them that it was ours.
But truth is, all weren't bought.
Days turned to months.
And months turned to years.
Till i forgot the number of lies i made.
It has been fucking five years without a 'safe' shelter.
Should i thank you for all the journey you 'made'?
And finally, it stopped.
We went on our separate ways.
I once again have a place called home.
I have a stable job and thought that it will turn out fine.
But it is just the beginning...
Daily, you called.
Asking for the same thing.
Do I look like one fucking ATM to you?
You said that I was favorite,
but all you do is making me sick.
Is this what an adult should do?
What the fuck is your limbs for?
I was just a 20yrs girl.
Do you think i'm fucking rich?
Every time, i head out with my friends.
They brag about the things you adults do.
but i hate that moment the most.
At times, I just wanna shut down myself.
I heard enough of all those promises you made.
It is all bullshit.
After months, you stopped contacting.
It is as if you did not existed.
But now,
I hate liars.
I hate stabbers.
I hate empty promises.
And I hate all those things you said.
I've lost trust in everyone.
Thanks to you.
I should be thankful for all those lessons you 'taught'.
Sometimes, i wonder if that is my true self.
I wonder if my words are true or lies.
I cant differentiate them.
So now, lies are my friends.
They accompanied me through the years.
So...
Thank you, lies.
And thank you, adult...
うまい！
23:04
Wednesday, April 25
I finally decided to buy HTC One X last Friday, went into a shop and bought it. Am enjoying every minutes and seconds with it! love my new phone.
うまい！
16:25
Saturday, April 14
I'm sleepy and tired. Din sleep well just now, only slept for 4hours until 1430hrs, and from that time onward, my eyes refused to close. No choice but to lay on bed turning here and there, until to the point of giving up and went to shower instead of wasting the power source for the air-conditioning.
I was watching the last Episode of Strong Heart by Lee Seung Gi. I'll certainly miss him hosting the show with Kang Hong Dong. Love both of them much much. The first show i watched was 2Day, 1Night. Now, both of them are not in either variety show. =(( I'm glad that it was SeungGi who hosted the YG special. All my fava singers in one show. TOP is sooo CUTE!! i love his minty green hair.
now, i'm bored and tired with nothing to read or watch. I'm waiting for Rooftop Prince and King2Heart episode 7 and8 to be sub. Ahhh.... What shall i do now?! If i'm in Korea now, it will be 0541hrs now, less than two hours before end of work.
i dun understand! when i'm at home, i cant sleep. now, i'm working, i cant wait to go back to my own bed to sleep. it is a weird cycle.
ok, i cant tahan anymore. i needa stop typing. good night, folks..!
うまい！
04:29
Friday, April 13
it is Friday the 13th!
wanna blog about this before Sat the 14th. wahahaha.
うまい！
23:07
Thursday, April 12
I'm in conflict.. my mind is in a mess. with all the numbers running around my mind. ahhh...! Maybe it is due to the night syndrome which is making all my senses go haywire. haiz.. haiz. haiz.!
the reason I'm in conflict?
As i was saying in my previous post that I'm gonna buy HTC One X no matter what. and i was checking the price from different 'line' shop. the differences between the price are big. let's not talk about the names of the shop. let's name them by colors - green, red and orange. should be familiar with the colors rt? if not, you are seriously not staying in Singapore for the past few years.
Green = monthly plan 25dollars - cost of phone 598
Red = monthly plan 25 dollars - cost of phone 618
Orange = monthly plan 25dollars -cost of phone 548
what the hell rt? i was browsing for the retail price of the phone and found out that it is 898 without any contract. and there is one shop in FarEast which is selling it at 770 without contract. so, what shall be my choice? shall i buy it without or with contract?
but firstly, my contract is not ending soon - ending somewhere in December which is a long long long long way. Secondly, Iphone5 is coming out, cost of the phone MAY drop but wouldn't be sure about it. Thirdly, I cant wait until Dec or Iphone 5 to come out, i want that phone immediately.
Posted that i would wait till June but my patience is not there. i really want this phone in my hands ,since i haf been wanting a new phone since last yr. was juggling from BlackBerry to Samsung Galaxy to Samsung Galaxy Note to HTC Velocity to FINALLY HTC One X.
but the price of it is seriously making my life more miserable. i told my mum that i wanted a new phone and she said go ahead since it is your money. Got the permission, now contemplating on contract or no contract.
I even haf the urge to buy it on my sleeping day after watching movie. It may be a rush decision and i dun want to make another mistake of buying a useless phone. not to say my current phone is useless, it is just not updated often. As we know, Window Phone is still a 'developing' phone. so, it is always the last to get all the 'new' things like Whatapps and stuffs. Can you believe that Window Phone does not haf Words with Friends and DrawSomething?! Almost everyone were asking me to join in but unfortunately, the marketplace does not have any of those.
I shall control my urge for the time being but i haf no idea how long i will be able to hold till.
Thou shalt not think of phone for the next few nights..!
*not to be, to be, not to be, to be, not to be, to be*
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHGHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH
the reason I'm in conflict?
As i was saying in my previous post that I'm gonna buy HTC One X no matter what. and i was checking the price from different 'line' shop. the differences between the price are big. let's not talk about the names of the shop. let's name them by colors - green, red and orange. should be familiar with the colors rt? if not, you are seriously not staying in Singapore for the past few years.
Green = monthly plan 25dollars - cost of phone 598
Red = monthly plan 25 dollars - cost of phone 618
Orange = monthly plan 25dollars -cost of phone 548
what the hell rt? i was browsing for the retail price of the phone and found out that it is 898 without any contract. and there is one shop in FarEast which is selling it at 770 without contract. so, what shall be my choice? shall i buy it without or with contract?
but firstly, my contract is not ending soon - ending somewhere in December which is a long long long long way. Secondly, Iphone5 is coming out, cost of the phone MAY drop but wouldn't be sure about it. Thirdly, I cant wait until Dec or Iphone 5 to come out, i want that phone immediately.
Posted that i would wait till June but my patience is not there. i really want this phone in my hands ,since i haf been wanting a new phone since last yr. was juggling from BlackBerry to Samsung Galaxy to Samsung Galaxy Note to HTC Velocity to FINALLY HTC One X.
but the price of it is seriously making my life more miserable. i told my mum that i wanted a new phone and she said go ahead since it is your money. Got the permission, now contemplating on contract or no contract.
I even haf the urge to buy it on my sleeping day after watching movie. It may be a rush decision and i dun want to make another mistake of buying a useless phone. not to say my current phone is useless, it is just not updated often. As we know, Window Phone is still a 'developing' phone. so, it is always the last to get all the 'new' things like Whatapps and stuffs. Can you believe that Window Phone does not haf Words with Friends and DrawSomething?! Almost everyone were asking me to join in but unfortunately, the marketplace does not have any of those.
I shall control my urge for the time being but i haf no idea how long i will be able to hold till.
Thou shalt not think of phone for the next few nights..!
*not to be, to be, not to be, to be, not to be, to be*
AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHGHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH
うまい！
04:19
Friday, April 6
Today marks the end of my al.... it has been a short week, indeed. i was just gonna enjoy and it's ending right when I'm having fun. Anyway, my next AL will soon arrive since it is in JUNE!! wahahaha... bonus bonus bonus bonus *dancing*
First thing I'm gonna buy when i get my bonus - HTC One X...! I have been waiting for this phone to come out and finally it is out! but it is bloody pricy for a normal middle class me to buy it. so, I'm gonna wait till JUNE!! it will be a birthday present for myself. OHOHOHOHOH... Now, i really wan June to arrive sooner, i dun care about the age anymore. as soon as it comes before i die (touch wood).
I'm so fascinated by the phone's function and everything about it. Omg. i wanna touch my own phone!
hmmm.... after thinking through, I'm wondering what I've been doing all this week which cause it to pass by as if it's like a blink. hmmm...
I spent the whole day at home on Monday doing advanced birthday cards and things. Spent the evening Tuesday eating buffet to celebrate munirah belated belated belated birthday. end up going home in the next morning, drank. Spent the whole wednesday at home sleeping since i'm drunk.
Went out with mummy on Thursday to my first adventure to IKEA and GIANT in Tampines. IKEA is HUGE. but i kinda hate that place after going once cos everything seem expensive and i cant afford most of the things which i fancy. It was a short adventure though. Head to Tampines Mall to eat, wanted to treat mum to PUTIEN but it was closed. So, mum said she wants to go back hougang to dine at Soup Restaurant, reached - the shop is closed as well. mummy become angry and marched all the way to plaza to have her fava sushi. wahahaha. ended the day with me in the salon.
Today is Good Friday whereby Jesus is crossed. So, mum instructed reminded us to be vegetarian today. woke up early to head down to Botanic garden to have picnic. unfortunately, it started raining cats and dogs. change of plans = watch American Pie Reunion. After that, went back to Botanic garden to continue with our picnic session. Nice weather with muddy/wet floor. Our backside was wet through. Had fun taking photos and seeing surrounding people having fun with their kids and dogs. oh, and one cat. Packed our things and began 'hiking' to find our way back to MRT station. Stopped by Island Creamery to have dessert before heading home. =p
Short week with minimal enjoyment. =((
First thing I'm gonna buy when i get my bonus - HTC One X...! I have been waiting for this phone to come out and finally it is out! but it is bloody pricy for a normal middle class me to buy it. so, I'm gonna wait till JUNE!! it will be a birthday present for myself. OHOHOHOHOH... Now, i really wan June to arrive sooner, i dun care about the age anymore. as soon as it comes before i die (touch wood).
I'm so fascinated by the phone's function and everything about it. Omg. i wanna touch my own phone!
hmmm.... after thinking through, I'm wondering what I've been doing all this week which cause it to pass by as if it's like a blink. hmmm...
I spent the whole day at home on Monday doing advanced birthday cards and things. Spent the evening Tuesday eating buffet to celebrate munirah belated belated belated birthday. end up going home in the next morning, drank. Spent the whole wednesday at home sleeping since i'm drunk.
Went out with mummy on Thursday to my first adventure to IKEA and GIANT in Tampines. IKEA is HUGE. but i kinda hate that place after going once cos everything seem expensive and i cant afford most of the things which i fancy. It was a short adventure though. Head to Tampines Mall to eat, wanted to treat mum to PUTIEN but it was closed. So, mum said she wants to go back hougang to dine at Soup Restaurant, reached - the shop is closed as well. mummy become angry and marched all the way to plaza to have her fava sushi. wahahaha. ended the day with me in the salon.
Today is Good Friday whereby Jesus is crossed. So, mum Short week with minimal enjoyment. =((
I wanna go K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
うまい！
22:18
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